God is compelling you, urging you. His diary, the Bible, says he is
2 Pet 3:9
... not wishing for any to perish but for all to come to repentance.
(NAS)
Remember who this is. It is the Creator, God seeking a loving relationship with you. He wants to give you his life, his joy. But he will not force himself upon you. You are free to reject his Son if you choose. But if you do, you reject him also. He is a holy God who cannot be contaminated by sin, who will not allow sin to reside where he is. The only thing left is hell. He who cannot lie said it. Are you now willing and ready to receive Jesus into your life as your Savior?