Remember, there can be love and respect that fail to result in a marriage, a union. You may have the utmost respect and admiration for Jesus. But that will not put you in a saving, living relationship with God. You are answering the most critical question any human ever faces.
John 3:18
He who believes in Him is not judged; he who does not believe has been judged already, because he has not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God.
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It is a critical question. Do you recognize and confess that the only way for you to be reconciled to God is through the shed blood of Jesus Christ, because God said it?